Happy New Year

I wish you year full of hope and prosperity. A year of new beginnings and joy. 2010 will be a year of excitement and happiness!

Christmas Is Here If You Care

I care! For the first time in YEARS I care. I am so excited about Christmas this year. Since October I have been looking at Christmas decorations with the slightest bit of shame. I happened to be one of the people in years past that would bah-humbug such action. I couldn't understand why everyone wanted to skip months of thier lives just to "enjoy" one day out of the year. This year is different though. I know why I am excited its not because of gift getting or gift giving. Its because its the time of year when there is a collective effort to be kind and to look inside yourself and find the good in life. Now combine those things with comforting lights on a Christmas Tree, the familar crooning of Bing Crosby and Rose Mary Clooney and the smell of pepermint hot chocolate it gives me an overwhelming sense of excitement.

To help me explain my transformation I call upon Faith Hill. . .See the lyrics below from http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/faithhill/whereareyouchristmas.html

"Where Are You Christmas"

Where are you Christmas
Why can't I find you
Why have you gone away
Where is the laughter
You used to bring me
Why can't I hear music play

My world is changing
I'm rearranging
Does that mean Christmas changes too

Where are you Christmas
Do you remember
The one you used to know
I'm not the same one
See what the time's done
Is that why you have let me go

Christmas is here
Everywhere, oh
Christmas is here
If you care, oh

If there is love in your heart and your mind
You will feel like Christmas all the time

I feel you Christmas
I know I've found you
You never fade away
The joy of Christmas
Stays here inside us
Fills each and every heart with love

Where are you Christmas
Fill your heart with love


So my peeps don't get bogged down by the commercial bombardment of Christmas. Keep it simple, Love is all you need to give this year.

I would also like to thank all of our service men and women and their families. Merry Christmas Troops!

Feeling Quiet

It is strange not to have the Internet at home anymore. Even more strange is that at work I am cutting down on my Internet usage too. My life will never be Internet free, but I am excited to say its not as Internet dependant anymore.

I haven't been on Facebook in a while. I have determined its good thing to not have constant access to a bombardment of information that doesn't really change my world. No more seeing who is finding a lost sheep on who's its ville and what's its farm. It is also good for me to not take every quiz about what sort of personality disorder I have (but I don't think awesomeness is a disorder).

I have made more time for important things like hanging out with friends, making winter hats and scarfs, reading and cleaning. Its great. My obsessive compulsive desire to know every little detail of all my friends lives was getting out of hand. Worse then that was my compulsion to check if anyone was commenting on my cute pictures or cleverness. Vain??? Yes, so to say the least this is a learning experience in humility and reminding myself that what matters in the long run is what I think about myself.

I have enjoyed the quiet. I don't feel I have to have noise or media flashing at me ALL OF THE TIME. It is wonderful. I have greater sense of my space and where I am in it. Its nice when you take time to make everything around you stop spinning and just hold still and quiet your soul and yes my friends BREATHE.

Vision

Last week in Happy Class we started vision boards. A vision board is a tool to help you create a matching vibration to what it is you want to have/be or do in your life and in your world. http://www.squidoo.com/what-is-a-vision-board. I was thrilled to be doing this. A few months ago I had made 3 small visions boards for my house and they make me very happy. I have collected a ton of magazines for cards that I make. I had all the tools necessary to make an outstanding vision board. It took me hours this weekend to complete it, but it was worth it. It was an interesting way for me to gain some insight into my dreams, goals and soul.

The first pictures are of the meager beginnings of my vision started last Tuesday:

Travel Section: Well its obvious that I need to go to Europe.


Love Section: Yes I am aware that Hugh Jackman is taken, but I would like someone with a kind smile and compassionate eyes.


Me Section: Who I am and who I want to become.


Health Section: Though its missing in these initial pictures it makes a grand appearance in the finished project.

This is my finished board the picture doesn't do it justice. I have to say I love my board its inspiring and exciting.


This is the mess I made . . .I enjoyed every moment of it.

Happiness Homework

I signed up for a community education class that started last Tuesday. The class is called Creating Happiness: Law of Attraction. As I have only attended one class its hard to explain just what the class is all about other then putting into practice the art of being happy. Of course it is acknowledged that people aren't happy all of the time. Your happiness is your responsibility and nobody elses. We were assigned to think about what makes us happy and come back this week and share. Of course I wrote down what makes me happy and I thought I would share with my blog readers (this is only a glimps of what makes me happy). I also challenge you all to think about what makes you happy.

What Makes Me Happy...
Music-because its an expression of all the emotions that touch my soul
Singing
My family and friends - the support and love they give me is infinate
Making people smile and laugh
Accomplishing my health goals
Nurturing and caring for others
Paying my bills
My job and my co-workers (seriously I have a great job and work with awesome people!)
My Mazda Protege aka Baby
Good books that inspire me to be the best version of me and encourage me to grow
Having the ability to create and share my creations with others
My body, all my senses, my moving limbs, my voice
Laughing until I "weeze" or can't breathe
Movies
Pajama Days
Traveling and seeing other places. Learning what makes these places and its people special.
Learning
Watching documentaries on PBS about subjects that I may not have ever been exposed to otherwise
Getting letters, cards and magazines in the mail
Smell of bubble gum and pepermint gum
Having a place to live and food to eat
Knowing I am not alone in this universe
Having a sense of community and commonality with human kind
Knowing that a broken heart can't kill me
Hope
Faith in myself
Hugs
Smiles from strangers
Being able to afford to decorate my home
Ice Cream especially chocolate peanut butter cup blizzards from Dairy Queen
Confidence
My clothes being to big for me because I have lost inches
Seasons
Cloud watching
Sunsets
Love and peace of mind make me the most happy

My Five Love Lanuages Results

The Five Love Lanuages is a phenomenal book and I recomend it to anyone who wants to gain compassion for others.

I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Language is Words of Affirmation

My Detailed Results:
Words of Affirmation:	11
Physical Touch:	10
Quality Time:	6
Acts of Service:	3
Receiving Gifts:	0

About this quiz

Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.

See what your love language is
http://edified.org/myspace/lovelanguage

Dirty Little Fun Haver

It has been almost 2 months since I have posted anything. I know crazy. What better time to post something then at midnight? That is right no other time is better.

The past 2 months have been full of good times. My friend Eric came to visit me and we had a wicked awesome time! A few weeks later my mom and Aunt Shana came to visit. We had a blast.

I have been watching movies like crazy. Last week I discovered Netflix. Its the new love of my life! I had been aprehensive about it for so long and when I finally opened my mind and heart to it I quickly became a helpless victim to the seduction of movies at my command. I can watch movies online, I can have dvd's sent to me. . .My movie geek self is in heaven. My second love is still the movie theater. I was there 2 times this weekend.

My latest imporant life developements are changing my phone number to a Boise number. Its nuts because I had the same phone number for about 8 years. However I felt it was time to change my mumber to a Boise number because I love it here. Its home and I am not planning on going anywhere. I am also going to get my Idaho drivers licence this week. I am actually excited about it all.

Well I think that is a good enough update for now. I am ready to try to sleep again.

Classy, Funky, Comfort

I don't like buying shoes. I don't like buying clothes. I like buying books, movies and Cd's. The things I like buying never make me second guess my looks or make me wonder why the hell my feet are swollen. Today however I went clothes/shoe shopping. I had to. In the last 3 weeks I have had to retire 3 pairs of dressy work pants because they are too big. Luckily I had 2 pairs of pants hidding on the shelf in my closet that I had hoped to fit into one day (low and behold that wonderful day came). It is awesome to go down sizes. However I wore my pants until when I walked they fell off me, because I loath clothes shopping so much. This morning I had to use a black sash to tie my pants up so they wouldn't fall off. I also had to toss a pair of work shoes today because the fabric had torn away from the sole of the shoe. Because of those 2 major events I took the time to go to Ross and Payless. At Ross I found a pair of pants 2 shirts and a pair of dress shoes. At Payless I found some funky fun shoes that made me feel GIDDY!! The following are pictures of my Classy new work shoes, my Funky shoes, and my favorite most Comfortable shoes. I would be lost without my comfortable shoes and they will have to be deteriorating before I ever toss them (sadly I think that day maybe soon)

CLASSY



Funky



Comfort

Earwigs Be Ware!

Let me start out by stating I am not a gardener. I have never loved anything that has to do with working outside when its hot. I would rather work on a car and get grease under my nails and oil in my face then wrestle with nature. Don't get me wrong I like to view nature and be surrounded by nature I just don't like to try to control it. Now that you know this you are properly prepared to hear the rest of my story.

I have a garden along the side of my garage that runs parallel to the sidewalk that leads to my front door. I have successfully neglected this garden up until today. I had let it get over grown and sad. I love my home and was determined this weekend to take care of the outside. I went to Fred Meyer and got some gardening gloves and a little spade. I already had clippers thanks to my friend Megan. I set everything next to my front door on Friday night so it would stare at me and force me to take care of the mess along my garage. Around 5:30 this evening when the garden was shaded I ventured into the great wild.

Here is what I found. My 4 rose bushes had to be trimmed back so much that there are no longer roses on them. The iris plant that I have will be easy to dig up as soon as I find a shovel. I have an earwig problem. Yep, the last thing is going to make me a gardener. The earwigs, destroyed my roses and that is why I had to trim them back to nothing. I now care what my garden looks like. I am going to wrestle nature and win!!! I will have a beautiful garden that shows how much I love my cute house. I will no longer let it be over run by weeds and ugly bugs that don't love my garden like I do!

-I would also like to take a moment to show my appreciation to the Ipod GODS!! Without them my gardening love would be more like gardening obligation and disdain!-

Early Morning Adventures of an Insomniac

Saturday at 2:30 am I was wide awake. 3:30 am still not sleeping tried reading. 4:30 am annoyed with reading started surfing the net. 5:30 thought hey I have never been to Oregon, I think its about time. So I hopped in my car and drove to Ontario, OR.

I ended up in the most beautiful place. It was Ontario State Recreation Site. Its not far off the freeway. I enjoyed the view of the Snake River. The sound combination of the river, the wind blowing through the trees and the birds was so inviting. I sat on a tree and lost myself in the moment. It was just what I needed to clear my mind and find some peace. I was so glad that I decided to throw some spontaneity into my world.



As I was sitting there breathing deeply enjoying the nature around me I realized that I want a big kid camera. I would love to take up photography as a hobby and I am afraid that the camera on my cell phone just isn't going to work for this new goal.


This picture is to remind you all that I LOVE hooded sweatshirts. It was the perfect temperature for a sweatshirt. This unseasonably cool June freaking ROCKS (yes I am doing the Hoddie Happy Dance)

I am happy to report that when I returned home from my adventure I went to sleep for a few hours. I woke up refreshed. I proceeded to have an eventful, fun and FANTASTIC Saturday.

Welcoming Change

The last month has delivered a lot of interesting experiences. It always amazes me how much I can learn about myself in a short period of time. What I have learned is that the my path may not be clear now, but when the fog lifts I will see that the rocks I have stumbled over have actually been stepping stones to great personal achievement's. I will be closer to my ultimate goals. Through tears, sweat, self-doubt and fatigue I have found that embracing change and not fighting it, is much better for my stubborn soul. I know now when I accept change I feel peaceful. I have realized that change does NOT equal challenge. As I write this I can't help but smile. I am happy and grateful for the changes in my life and I now welcome them with hope and love.

Art of Me

Well folks tomorrow night my self-art project will be complete. Yes, 2 years in the works my tattoo will finally be finished. I am very excited for this process to be finished for many reasons. It holds a lot of symbolism and it has an interesting story. Which I may elaborate on when I post the pictures of the finished masterpiece. Until then here is a sneak peak.

Breakfast for Dinner

I just made myself scrambled eggs and chocolate chip pancakes . . . for dinner! I love breakfast its my favorite meal of the day. I normally have a bowl of cereal for at least one of my daily meals. I love eggs and could eat them for every meal. However I think that would be bad for my already high cholesterol. As a tribute to my favorite meal... BREAKFAST here are my top 5 favorite things to eat for the most important meal of the day.

#5 The Breakfast Burrito: The best are from Betos, Carls Jr, Wendy's and Sonic. I haven't had one in a very long time. Which is probably a good thing.



#4 Denny's Moons Over My Hammy®
Ham and scrambled egg sandwich with Swiss and American cheese on grilled sourdough. Served with choice of hash browns or grits.





#3Village Inn
Ham and Cheese Skillet. Yes you are noticing a pattern. In my opinion you can very rarely go wrong with Ham, Cheese, Egg Trio.







#2 Hopper's Restaurant and Grill http://www.hoppersbrewpub.com/
Cinnamon Rolls and Chili Verde Omelet (Lord have mercy my mouth is watering) Luckily every time I am in Utah I manage to meet a friend there for brunch.




and #1 goes to a trusty favorite

CEREAL
Most recently my favorite cereal is Multi-Grain Cheerios

I give honorable mention to: Honey Nut Cheerios, Rice Crispies, Fruity Pebbles, Multi Grain Chex and Life.

I Really Did That?!?!

If you aren't laughing at those pictures now you will be in just moments! Friday at 4:00 pm I was on my way to the restroom at work. I went to pull the strap up on my left shoe and then my right shoe. Much to my surprise my right shoe had no strap. I then looked down at my shoes to examine exactly how that could be. Then it hit me like a ton of shoes dropping from the heavens. I had worn 2 different shoes. The most astounding thing about this situation is that the day is was almost over and no one at work had noticed and then giving me 8 hours worth of crap. Of course I was giggling non-stop at my discovery and not only shared my shoe moment with all my co-workers, but I sent a text to some of my friends to brighten their Friday afternoon. Now I am sharing it with all of you so that you might know its the small silly moments in life that bring the most happiness.

Spring Is So Much Better

This past weekend I took a little road trip to the beautiful place I was raised. As I approached Tremonton, UT I held my breath in amazement. The last time I had driven to Utah from Boise,ID I was surrounded by gray snow and barren weathered trees. This time everything was green and lush. I was most happy to see the mountains that had protected me for so many years. I was in such awe of them I had to take a picture. Yes I took this picture while I was driving.

The morning after I arrived in Utah my sister and I went for a walk around her neighborhood. I was so grateful I brought my phone with me so that I could get these pictures. I was in the company of my wonderful sister and nature. The next morning my kick ass brother and I went for a hike (saddly I forgot my phone so there are no pictures), but I again lucked out and had great company and wonders of nature.


I had a wonderful trip and was thrilled to see all my family and friends. I was also exctited to get back to my cute home and my AWESOME bed.

Yay for the Great State of Idaho!

Corner of Heaven

My bedroom is complete except for some wall art and some photos of my Family I want to frame. It truely is my very own corner of heaven. Some people do double takes when they walk away from a hot lover, or a sexy car and I do double takes when I walk out of my bedroom.







I had 2 extra king sized shams. So my friend gave me an old ottoman and this is what I did with the shams.

I love my home and I love my room!

Thanks to My Friends

I have noticed a trend in my life. Most of my closest friends live far away. On occasion this makes me sad. However the roads that separate us have been taken for good reason. Life has happened to all of us. Jobs have moved us, lovers found and lost have located and relocated us, opportunities and enlightenment have driven us to exactly where we need to be. We have made new friends and add to the richness of our lives. New experiences have brought us one step closer to the people we want to be. The most long lasting friendships can endure these changes in our lives, press forward through distance and span years. I am grateful for the friendships that have touched my life. It is encouraging to know that I am truly never alone. One email, instant message, text, phone call, Facebook status or home made card will draw my strongest supporters to my side in the moments when I need it most.

To all of you that are part of my crazy life Thank You for all the anxieties you have eased with love, the angry moments you have turned into laughter, the frustrations and disappointments that you have melted away with a hug and the silly moments that have become inside jokes that I cherish. You are my angels and I love you.

Happy News!

Let it be written. Let it be known. After many months of anticipation I finally know how much my tax refund will be. I am happy to announce that it is enough for me to get a QUEEN SIZE BED!!!!! I am currently sleeping on a lumpy twin size mattress that is on a steel frame and its very low to the ground. Though I am grateful to have a bed at all. My excitement for a new bed is overwhelming. Now I will eagerly await the arrival of the money into my checking account. I am thrilled to start mattress shopping and searching for the perfect bedding!!! My bedroom will finally be able to come together as a sanctuary not just a place I try to sleep. Thank you all for sharing my joy!!

My New Favorite Things

My Ipod Nano with the sport arm band. It is what keeps me working out and distracts me from the monotony.








Dr. Horrible's Sing-A-Long Blog is my favorite thing to watch/listen to over and over again. I almost have it memorized it is the most fantastic thing ever. It has the best one liners such as "I hold a PHD in horribleness" or "What a crazy random happenstance" or "How are things with cheesy on the outside?" If you haven't seen it you must check it out! http://www.drhorrible.com


RENT the final Broadway performance. I bought it at Walmart on Valentines Day. I have watched 3 or 4 times since I purchased it. It has always amazed me how much live theater (even if I am not there) inspires me. I actually like the stage version better then the Hollywood version.





Going to the gym. Yes you read right. I said one of my favorite things is going to the gym. I love the satisfaction of being able to improve my distance, incline or speed each time I get on the treadmill. I love that I am doing something to help me improve my life for me because I want to. Its starting to verge on fun for me. I will be able to go hiking in Muller Park canyon when I am in Utah in May and that thrills me to no end. Yay for me! Its so weird to write all this and not be sarcastic.

PBS its like a drug

I have an addiction and its called PBS. There are so many things about it that I can't get enough of. Nature, Nova, The American Experience, British Comedies or any other British shows,cooking shows, home improvement shows and Antique Road Show. I do not have cable. If I did my addiction to educational channels would be much more intense. I would be likely to overdose on the Discovery, History and Travel channels. I can just see it after days of no one hearing from me I would be found on my couch wide eyed, disheveled and mumbling things like "No baby gazelle don't go near that watering hole." and "I hate Samantha Brown she has my dream job. Italy, Paris, Ireland. ..Its not fair." and "Rain forest ecosystems are delicate and complex." It is obvious that only having PBS is a better habit for me to pursue.

Which is More Terrifying

Teenagers or Horror Movies

Last night a friend and I went to see a movie. We were too late to see all the ones we were really interested in, so we settled for a horror movie The Uninvited.
If you know me you know that at more then one point in this movie I screamed, watched the movie through my fingers and grabbed onto my friends hand. Luckily she did the same. We went to the 8pm showing of the show which is the teenage witching hour. We were overwhelmed by the 12-15 year old crowd. We were the old ladies that didn't want to be up past midnight. As we stood in line we observed the obvious differences and sad similarities between the way teenagers are now and what kind of teenagers we were a life time ago. I know I have said this a thousand times but I wouldn't go back to that age for all the ice cream at Ben and Jerry's. It was a horrible awkward time full of angst and self loathing. I prefer to be approaching 30 full of happiness and self love. We observed the same lack of self identity in these teenagers eyes. We also couldn't help but critique their clothes. Back in the day we rocked baggy boys jeans, baggy t-shirts, flannel shirts and clunky boots. Not only did we look cool (in our minds) we had the comfort of practically wearing jamies. Such is not the case anymore. The look is form fitting layered shirts and skinny jeans. This curvy girl would have requested to be home schooled and locked in a cave if the styles for teenagers now had been my only option. Another thing about teenagers that was brought to our attention last night was that they are mean. More mean then 2 cynical opinionated women in their mid - late twenty's. We walked into the IMAX theater and decided to sit in the top corner. As we sat down a girl screamed on the other side of the theater. My friend said "Hey shut up". I thought she was saying it to the girl on the other side of the theater. The kid in front of us looked at us and I said no not you. My fearless friend said "Yes YOU". Then she turned to me and said he was being rude and I said how rude. She said very rude. I let it drop when people won't tell me details it usually means they are protecting me. For a moment I felt like an insecure teenager again. This experience was a good reminder of how much I appreciate getting older. It also showed me that there is nothing more terrifying then a teenager (not even the undead crawling and clawing their way to your bed).

Accomplishments

Things I have accomplished in the last week:

Surviving the drive between Boise & Salt Lake City and Salt Lake to Boise. This is a huge deal as the roads were poo both ways.

Making Miss Cassy's hair look "fabulous" for her wedding - she said so.

Starting a body conditioning class through Boise Education. It is awesome!!

I went grocery shopping. This is huge considering my fridge and cupboards were empty. I bought healthy stuff. I even purchased vanilla soy milk for my Special K cereal.

Did laundry (thank God for my Natalie and Andy letting me use their washer and dryer)

Geeked out with Natalie and Andy. Picture 3 adults with 3 laptops sitting at the kitchen table. All 3 listening to music, playing on facebook and watching youtube - Side note: if you haven't yet get on youtube and check out. .. Jeff Dunham, Jim Gaffigan (Hot Pockets), Jeff Dye and the preview for Wolverine!- It was fun!

I haven't ripped my hair out because of the project from hell at work.

Along with my daily showering . . .to help me relax I have taken baths at night. Its been so nice.It helps that when I was in Utah my mom gave me my belated birthday present. . a basket with sugar vanilla lotion, bubble bath, body spray and a candle. Its pure heaven add in some chill tunes and well there are no words.

Because of the baths I have also shaved my legs twice in one week. If you know me you know this nigh on to a miracle :) My sister would be so proud.

Blogged

Let's Go To The Mall Part II

I went back to the mall yesterday to complete my quest: Finding adorable hair accessories for Cassy's wedding day hair.

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED

I went to Icing not only did the accessory store have what I wanted for Cassy's hair, but it held many more treasures. (I have decided I should not be allowed back in the mall unless I leave my wallet at home and only allow myself a cash allowance) Needless to say it was absolutely essential that I get new shiny, dangley earrings and then of course I had to get studs for my the second piercing in my ears.

After I left there I made a fatal shopping error. I went to my favorite store . . . Torrid (the curvy girls dream store). Its not a huge store and I am sure I made my way around it ten times. I was talking myself into and out of buying new clothes. I grabbed some perfume because it was only $4.00. Then I justified a black long sleeve shirt. (If I may digress for a moment. . .I have very few clothes. I have a huge closet and I use less then a quarter of it. I can wash all my clothes in one load if I don't include my many pairs of jammies.) I walked up to pay and looked at the cashier and told her to tell me I needed a $50 pair of jeans. She said yes you do. I then told her my favorite pair of jeans are tore up and the other pair I have fit me weird. She said that was horrible and I absolutely needed a pair of $50 jeans. I as I grabbed the beautiful new jeans on the counter, I said new jeans are more important the groceries, right?. She said yes. That was all I the convincing I needed. She rang me up. I am determined to prove she must have been one of Satan's evil minions.

However now that I have all of these new purchases in my possession I am glad that I was tempted and spent the money.

The moral of this story is every once in a while its ok to splurge on yourself.
You DESERVE it!!!

Let's go to the Mall

On Saturday in an effort to join the human race I went to the mall. I left my house and instantly wished I had stayed home and taken a nap. I am not the biggest fan of crowds but I do enjoy people watching. My main purpose for going to the mall -other then just to get out of the house- was to go to Borders. I have been reading The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde online and its making me nuts. I prefer to have books in my hands. I love the smell of books. The way they feel and the way the look. It is comforting to me. I digress back to the mall.

As I roamed the stores of the Boise Town Center mall I observed quite a few things that made me laugh and roll my eyes.
*Mothers dragging their daughters around shopping for make-up and all things girly. The daughters making the "I wish you weren't here mom" face.
*Teenage "couples" hugging and holding hands and making me gag.
*A sweet boy on his phone telling someone that its better to go to Banana Republic because they will shop for you. Apparently the employees their just bring you clothes. I wouldn't know because Banana Republic is out of my size and price range.
*The restrooms practically require a map and compass to get to.
*Single fathers looking exhausted with their kids following them closely pointing to things they want and need.

All in all it was a good way to re-aclimate myself to humanity as I have been a shut in for the last 3 months. It was a fun adventure and I will be going back later this week. I am on a quest to find the most adorable piece of hair flair for my friend who is getting married on Saturday. Wish me luck.

Babbling Becky

It used to be that the one way I could clear my head was to write. I would sit down with a pen and notebook and would just let it all flow. It would usually end in a glimmer of self discovery. I don't do that anymore. However I am desperate tonight because I haven't fallen asleep before 1:30 am in a week. If you know me this is truly out of character for me.

I was a half hour late for work today because I slept through my alarm. Thank God they just laughed at me. I moved snail like through my day. Every time my supervisor looked at me she gave me the "You poor girl look". A valid look considering today I appeared to be a zombie.

I forced myself to go to Walmart tonight. Ok I am exagerating. I needed some retail therapy. It was the most amazingly peaceful Walmart experience I have ever had. It was a wonderful Walmart quiet, clean, wide aisles and bright. I of course spent much more then I had anticipated. I was inclined to buy 2 different kinds of mascara. One mascara I know I like the other is a new kind that is supposed to enhance my eye color. I bought hair dye. I am nervous because its a brand that I have never used and its a shade lighter then I have been dying my hair for years. The reason I am going a shade lighter is because I have found the base color of my hair is now gray not dark brown and it doesn't take the dark brown so well. I also bought sleepy time tea. Which I am drinking as I write this fine example of babbling.

It seems the combination of the tea and the babbling is making me very drowsy.

So Much To Say

I feel like I have so much to say (blog), but I feel like I will say(blog)something ridiculous and it will be electronically imprinted for the rest of ETERNITY. Its not as if this is a little journal that I can burn after reading. Am I supposed to write witty clever things, intellectual rants or deep soul searching prose? Should I worry about being blunt, random and honest for fear of offending someone or being perceived as bitter jade unfiltered woman looking for another medium to lash out? Its obvious the answer to these questions do not require a rocket science, nifty equations or complicated graphs. I suppose its a matter of letting go of my fears of what other people think and feel about me.

To empower myself I declare to all of my blog followers and any other bystanders I will write without fear. I will not over analyze (thats not true I will because its my nature). I will just write.

My Return to Blogging

I know its ridiculous how long it has been since I have written ANYTHING. Here is my update. I still don't drink soda (ok I have one soda a month). I haven't been able to kick the sweets though. . .dang it! I am now living in my own cute place in Boise, ID. Things are going well.

I wish there was more to report. I am lacking in the excitement department. In fact I have a friend that likes to remind me I am the most boring person EVER. Frankly, that's ok with me. I know that my life won't be this quiet forever, so I am enjoying.