Thursday, December 31, 2009
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
To help me explain my transformation I call upon Faith Hill. . .See the lyrics below from http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/faithhill/whereareyouchristmas.html
"Where Are You Christmas"
Where are you Christmas
Why can't I find you
Why have you gone away
Where is the laughter
You used to bring me
Why can't I hear music play
My world is changing
Does that mean Christmas changes too
Where are you Christmas
Do you remember
The one you used to know
I'm not the same one
See what the time's done
Is that why you have let me go
Christmas is here
Christmas is here
If you care, oh
If there is love in your heart and your mind
You will feel like Christmas all the time
I feel you Christmas
I know I've found you
You never fade away
The joy of Christmas
Stays here inside us
Fills each and every heart with love
Where are you Christmas
Fill your heart with love
So my peeps don't get bogged down by the commercial bombardment of Christmas. Keep it simple, Love is all you need to give this year.
I would also like to thank all of our service men and women and their families. Merry Christmas Troops!
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
I haven't been on Facebook in a while. I have determined its good thing to not have constant access to a bombardment of information that doesn't really change my world. No more seeing who is finding a lost sheep on who's its ville and what's its farm. It is also good for me to not take every quiz about what sort of personality disorder I have (but I don't think awesomeness is a disorder).
I have made more time for important things like hanging out with friends, making winter hats and scarfs, reading and cleaning. Its great. My obsessive compulsive desire to know every little detail of all my friends lives was getting out of hand. Worse then that was my compulsion to check if anyone was commenting on my cute pictures or cleverness. Vain??? Yes, so to say the least this is a learning experience in humility and reminding myself that what matters in the long run is what I think about myself.
I have enjoyed the quiet. I don't feel I have to have noise or media flashing at me ALL OF THE TIME. It is wonderful. I have greater sense of my space and where I am in it. Its nice when you take time to make everything around you stop spinning and just hold still and quiet your soul and yes my friends BREATHE.
Monday, October 19, 2009
The first pictures are of the meager beginnings of my vision started last Tuesday:
Travel Section: Well its obvious that I need to go to Europe.
Love Section: Yes I am aware that Hugh Jackman is taken, but I would like someone with a kind smile and compassionate eyes.
Me Section: Who I am and who I want to become.
Health Section: Though its missing in these initial pictures it makes a grand appearance in the finished project.
This is my finished board the picture doesn't do it justice. I have to say I love my board its inspiring and exciting.
This is the mess I made . . .I enjoyed every moment of it.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
What Makes Me Happy...
Music-because its an expression of all the emotions that touch my soul
My family and friends - the support and love they give me is infinate
Making people smile and laugh
Accomplishing my health goals
Nurturing and caring for others
Paying my bills
My job and my co-workers (seriously I have a great job and work with awesome people!)
My Mazda Protege aka Baby
Good books that inspire me to be the best version of me and encourage me to grow
Having the ability to create and share my creations with others
My body, all my senses, my moving limbs, my voice
Laughing until I "weeze" or can't breathe
Traveling and seeing other places. Learning what makes these places and its people special.
Watching documentaries on PBS about subjects that I may not have ever been exposed to otherwise
Getting letters, cards and magazines in the mail
Smell of bubble gum and pepermint gum
Having a place to live and food to eat
Knowing I am not alone in this universe
Having a sense of community and commonality with human kind
Knowing that a broken heart can't kill me
Faith in myself
Smiles from strangers
Being able to afford to decorate my home
Ice Cream especially chocolate peanut butter cup blizzards from Dairy Queen
My clothes being to big for me because I have lost inches
Love and peace of mind make me the most happy
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
I feel loved when...
The Five Love Languages
My Primary Love Language is Words of Affirmation
|My Detailed Results:|
|Words of Affirmation:||11|
|Acts of Service:||3|
About this quiz
Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.
See what your love language is
The past 2 months have been full of good times. My friend Eric came to visit me and we had a wicked awesome time! A few weeks later my mom and Aunt Shana came to visit. We had a blast.
I have been watching movies like crazy. Last week I discovered Netflix. Its the new love of my life! I had been aprehensive about it for so long and when I finally opened my mind and heart to it I quickly became a helpless victim to the seduction of movies at my command. I can watch movies online, I can have dvd's sent to me. . .My movie geek self is in heaven. My second love is still the movie theater. I was there 2 times this weekend.
My latest imporant life developements are changing my phone number to a Boise number. Its nuts because I had the same phone number for about 8 years. However I felt it was time to change my mumber to a Boise number because I love it here. Its home and I am not planning on going anywhere. I am also going to get my Idaho drivers licence this week. I am actually excited about it all.
Well I think that is a good enough update for now. I am ready to try to sleep again.
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
I have a garden along the side of my garage that runs parallel to the sidewalk that leads to my front door. I have successfully neglected this garden up until today. I had let it get over grown and sad. I love my home and was determined this weekend to take care of the outside. I went to Fred Meyer and got some gardening gloves and a little spade. I already had clippers thanks to my friend Megan. I set everything next to my front door on Friday night so it would stare at me and force me to take care of the mess along my garage. Around 5:30 this evening when the garden was shaded I ventured into the great wild.
Here is what I found. My 4 rose bushes had to be trimmed back so much that there are no longer roses on them. The iris plant that I have will be easy to dig up as soon as I find a shovel. I have an earwig problem. Yep, the last thing is going to make me a gardener. The earwigs, destroyed my roses and that is why I had to trim them back to nothing. I now care what my garden looks like. I am going to wrestle nature and win!!! I will have a beautiful garden that shows how much I love my cute house. I will no longer let it be over run by weeds and ugly bugs that don't love my garden like I do!
-I would also like to take a moment to show my appreciation to the Ipod GODS!! Without them my gardening love would be more like gardening obligation and disdain!-
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Saturday at 2:30 am I was wide awake. 3:30 am still not sleeping tried reading. 4:30 am annoyed with reading started surfing the net. 5:30 thought hey I have never been to Oregon, I think its about time. So I hopped in my car and drove to Ontario, OR.
I ended up in the most beautiful place. It was Ontario State Recreation Site. Its not far off the freeway. I enjoyed the view of the Snake River. The sound combination of the river, the wind blowing through the trees and the birds was so inviting. I sat on a tree and lost myself in the moment. It was just what I needed to clear my mind and find some peace. I was so glad that I decided to throw some spontaneity into my world.
As I was sitting there breathing deeply enjoying the nature around me I realized that I want a big kid camera. I would love to take up photography as a hobby and I am afraid that the camera on my cell phone just isn't going to work for this new goal.
This picture is to remind you all that I LOVE hooded sweatshirts. It was the perfect temperature for a sweatshirt. This unseasonably cool June freaking ROCKS (yes I am doing the Hoddie Happy Dance)
I am happy to report that when I returned home from my adventure I went to sleep for a few hours. I woke up refreshed. I proceeded to have an eventful, fun and FANTASTIC Saturday.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Friday, May 29, 2009
Sunday, May 24, 2009
#5 The Breakfast Burrito: The best are from Betos, Carls Jr, Wendy's and Sonic. I haven't had one in a very long time. Which is probably a good thing.
#4 Denny's Moons Over My Hammy®
Ham and scrambled egg sandwich with Swiss and American cheese on grilled sourdough. Served with choice of hash browns or grits.
Ham and Cheese Skillet. Yes you are noticing a pattern. In my opinion you can very rarely go wrong with Ham, Cheese, Egg Trio.
#2 Hopper's Restaurant and Grill http://www.hoppersbrewpub.com/
Cinnamon Rolls and Chili Verde Omelet (Lord have mercy my mouth is watering) Luckily every time I am in Utah I manage to meet a friend there for brunch.
and #1 goes to a trusty favorite
Most recently my favorite cereal is Multi-Grain Cheerios
I give honorable mention to: Honey Nut Cheerios, Rice Crispies, Fruity Pebbles, Multi Grain Chex and Life.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
If you aren't laughing at those pictures now you will be in just moments! Friday at 4:00 pm I was on my way to the restroom at work. I went to pull the strap up on my left shoe and then my right shoe. Much to my surprise my right shoe had no strap. I then looked down at my shoes to examine exactly how that could be. Then it hit me like a ton of shoes dropping from the heavens. I had worn 2 different shoes. The most astounding thing about this situation is that the day is was almost over and no one at work had noticed and then giving me 8 hours worth of crap. Of course I was giggling non-stop at my discovery and not only shared my shoe moment with all my co-workers, but I sent a text to some of my friends to brighten their Friday afternoon. Now I am sharing it with all of you so that you might know its the small silly moments in life that bring the most happiness.
Monday, May 11, 2009
The morning after I arrived in Utah my sister and I went for a walk around her neighborhood. I was so grateful I brought my phone with me so that I could get these pictures. I was in the company of my wonderful sister and nature. The next morning my kick ass brother and I went for a hike (saddly I forgot my phone so there are no pictures), but I again lucked out and had great company and wonders of nature.
I had a wonderful trip and was thrilled to see all my family and friends. I was also exctited to get back to my cute home and my AWESOME bed.
Yay for the Great State of Idaho!
Sunday, May 3, 2009
I had 2 extra king sized shams. So my friend gave me an old ottoman and this is what I did with the shams.
I love my home and I love my room!
Friday, April 24, 2009
To all of you that are part of my crazy life Thank You for all the anxieties you have eased with love, the angry moments you have turned into laughter, the frustrations and disappointments that you have melted away with a hug and the silly moments that have become inside jokes that I cherish. You are my angels and I love you.
Friday, April 10, 2009
Friday, February 27, 2009
My Ipod Nano with the sport arm band. It is what keeps me working out and distracts me from the monotony.
Dr. Horrible's Sing-A-Long Blog is my favorite thing to watch/listen to over and over again. I almost have it memorized it is the most fantastic thing ever. It has the best one liners such as "I hold a PHD in horribleness" or "What a crazy random happenstance" or "How are things with cheesy on the outside?" If you haven't seen it you must check it out! http://www.drhorrible.com
RENT the final Broadway performance. I bought it at Walmart on Valentines Day. I have watched 3 or 4 times since I purchased it. It has always amazed me how much live theater (even if I am not there) inspires me. I actually like the stage version better then the Hollywood version.
Going to the gym. Yes you read right. I said one of my favorite things is going to the gym. I love the satisfaction of being able to improve my distance, incline or speed each time I get on the treadmill. I love that I am doing something to help me improve my life for me because I want to. Its starting to verge on fun for me. I will be able to go hiking in Muller Park canyon when I am in Utah in May and that thrills me to no end. Yay for me! Its so weird to write all this and not be sarcastic.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
I have an addiction and its called PBS. There are so many things about it that I can't get enough of. Nature, Nova, The American Experience, British Comedies or any other British shows,cooking shows, home improvement shows and Antique Road Show. I do not have cable. If I did my addiction to educational channels would be much more intense. I would be likely to overdose on the Discovery, History and Travel channels. I can just see it after days of no one hearing from me I would be found on my couch wide eyed, disheveled and mumbling things like "No baby gazelle don't go near that watering hole." and "I hate Samantha Brown she has my dream job. Italy, Paris, Ireland. ..Its not fair." and "Rain forest ecosystems are delicate and complex." It is obvious that only having PBS is a better habit for me to pursue.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Last night a friend and I went to see a movie. We were too late to see all the ones we were really interested in, so we settled for a horror movie The Uninvited.
If you know me you know that at more then one point in this movie I screamed, watched the movie through my fingers and grabbed onto my friends hand. Luckily she did the same. We went to the 8pm showing of the show which is the teenage witching hour. We were overwhelmed by the 12-15 year old crowd. We were the old ladies that didn't want to be up past midnight. As we stood in line we observed the obvious differences and sad similarities between the way teenagers are now and what kind of teenagers we were a life time ago. I know I have said this a thousand times but I wouldn't go back to that age for all the ice cream at Ben and Jerry's. It was a horrible awkward time full of angst and self loathing. I prefer to be approaching 30 full of happiness and self love. We observed the same lack of self identity in these teenagers eyes. We also couldn't help but critique their clothes. Back in the day we rocked baggy boys jeans, baggy t-shirts, flannel shirts and clunky boots. Not only did we look cool (in our minds) we had the comfort of practically wearing jamies. Such is not the case anymore. The look is form fitting layered shirts and skinny jeans. This curvy girl would have requested to be home schooled and locked in a cave if the styles for teenagers now had been my only option. Another thing about teenagers that was brought to our attention last night was that they are mean. More mean then 2 cynical opinionated women in their mid - late twenty's. We walked into the IMAX theater and decided to sit in the top corner. As we sat down a girl screamed on the other side of the theater. My friend said "Hey shut up". I thought she was saying it to the girl on the other side of the theater. The kid in front of us looked at us and I said no not you. My fearless friend said "Yes YOU". Then she turned to me and said he was being rude and I said how rude. She said very rude. I let it drop when people won't tell me details it usually means they are protecting me. For a moment I felt like an insecure teenager again. This experience was a good reminder of how much I appreciate getting older. It also showed me that there is nothing more terrifying then a teenager (not even the undead crawling and clawing their way to your bed).
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Surviving the drive between Boise & Salt Lake City and Salt Lake to Boise. This is a huge deal as the roads were poo both ways.
Making Miss Cassy's hair look "fabulous" for her wedding - she said so.
Starting a body conditioning class through Boise Education. It is awesome!!
I went grocery shopping. This is huge considering my fridge and cupboards were empty. I bought healthy stuff. I even purchased vanilla soy milk for my Special K cereal.
Did laundry (thank God for my Natalie and Andy letting me use their washer and dryer)
Geeked out with Natalie and Andy. Picture 3 adults with 3 laptops sitting at the kitchen table. All 3 listening to music, playing on facebook and watching youtube - Side note: if you haven't yet get on youtube and check out. .. Jeff Dunham, Jim Gaffigan (Hot Pockets), Jeff Dye and the preview for Wolverine!- It was fun!
I haven't ripped my hair out because of the project from hell at work.
Along with my daily showering . . .to help me relax I have taken baths at night. Its been so nice.It helps that when I was in Utah my mom gave me my belated birthday present. . a basket with sugar vanilla lotion, bubble bath, body spray and a candle. Its pure heaven add in some chill tunes and well there are no words.
Because of the baths I have also shaved my legs twice in one week. If you know me you know this nigh on to a miracle :) My sister would be so proud.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
I went to Icing not only did the accessory store have what I wanted for Cassy's hair, but it held many more treasures. (I have decided I should not be allowed back in the mall unless I leave my wallet at home and only allow myself a cash allowance) Needless to say it was absolutely essential that I get new shiny, dangley earrings and then of course I had to get studs for my the second piercing in my ears.
After I left there I made a fatal shopping error. I went to my favorite store . . . Torrid (the curvy girls dream store). Its not a huge store and I am sure I made my way around it ten times. I was talking myself into and out of buying new clothes. I grabbed some perfume because it was only $4.00. Then I justified a black long sleeve shirt. (If I may digress for a moment. . .I have very few clothes. I have a huge closet and I use less then a quarter of it. I can wash all my clothes in one load if I don't include my many pairs of jammies.) I walked up to pay and looked at the cashier and told her to tell me I needed a $50 pair of jeans. She said yes you do. I then told her my favorite pair of jeans are tore up and the other pair I have fit me weird. She said that was horrible and I absolutely needed a pair of $50 jeans. I as I grabbed the beautiful new jeans on the counter, I said new jeans are more important the groceries, right?. She said yes. That was all I the convincing I needed. She rang me up. I am determined to prove she must have been one of Satan's evil minions.
However now that I have all of these new purchases in my possession I am glad that I was tempted and spent the money.
The moral of this story is every once in a while its ok to splurge on yourself.
You DESERVE it!!!
Sunday, January 18, 2009
As I roamed the stores of the Boise Town Center mall I observed quite a few things that made me laugh and roll my eyes.
*Mothers dragging their daughters around shopping for make-up and all things girly. The daughters making the "I wish you weren't here mom" face.
*Teenage "couples" hugging and holding hands and making me gag.
*A sweet boy on his phone telling someone that its better to go to Banana Republic because they will shop for you. Apparently the employees their just bring you clothes. I wouldn't know because Banana Republic is out of my size and price range.
*The restrooms practically require a map and compass to get to.
*Single fathers looking exhausted with their kids following them closely pointing to things they want and need.
All in all it was a good way to re-aclimate myself to humanity as I have been a shut in for the last 3 months. It was a fun adventure and I will be going back later this week. I am on a quest to find the most adorable piece of hair flair for my friend who is getting married on Saturday. Wish me luck.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
I was a half hour late for work today because I slept through my alarm. Thank God they just laughed at me. I moved snail like through my day. Every time my supervisor looked at me she gave me the "You poor girl look". A valid look considering today I appeared to be a zombie.
I forced myself to go to Walmart tonight. Ok I am exagerating. I needed some retail therapy. It was the most amazingly peaceful Walmart experience I have ever had. It was a wonderful Walmart quiet, clean, wide aisles and bright. I of course spent much more then I had anticipated. I was inclined to buy 2 different kinds of mascara. One mascara I know I like the other is a new kind that is supposed to enhance my eye color. I bought hair dye. I am nervous because its a brand that I have never used and its a shade lighter then I have been dying my hair for years. The reason I am going a shade lighter is because I have found the base color of my hair is now gray not dark brown and it doesn't take the dark brown so well. I also bought sleepy time tea. Which I am drinking as I write this fine example of babbling.
It seems the combination of the tea and the babbling is making me very drowsy.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
To empower myself I declare to all of my blog followers and any other bystanders I will write without fear. I will not over analyze (thats not true I will because its my nature). I will just write.
Friday, January 2, 2009
I wish there was more to report. I am lacking in the excitement department. In fact I have a friend that likes to remind me I am the most boring person EVER. Frankly, that's ok with me. I know that my life won't be this quiet forever, so I am enjoying.